When I was very young my grandad let me drive his boat. It was pretty simple. A throttle that went up or down (fast or slow), and a steering wheel that turned in circles ( left or right. )
I can see how he might have logically deduced that even a young boy couldn’t mess that up. As soon as he said, “gently push the throttle up”, all logic was gone (several hundred feet behind us to be more precise).
I was learning how my logic was flawed as well. I knew boats to go through the water, but had no clue that at high speeds they violently bounced on the waves. I also had no idea that the front of the boat would raise up out of the water so much that I couldn’t even begin to see in front of us.
With zero visibility and the boat bouncing out of control, I wasn’t sure what to do. Without sight, I didn’t know whether safety was to the left or right. Without wisdom and experience, the thought to pull the throttle back never entered my mind. I only knew one thing from my lesson with grandad… push the throttle forward. And that is all I did.
I feel like I’ve done this in other areas of my life. When God whispers, go forth, I run out of control before He can even finish the instructions. He knows the destination, I don’t. And even when blinded by obstruction and ignorance I can’t speed up fast enough into unknown territory. My life is bouncing off the waves and a tiny boy is at the wheel randomly throwing the steering wheel back and forth.
There are several things the enemy doesn’t want us to know. First, we can slow down. Even stop. It’s not only OK, its preferred to have things in order with the Father before running out. Second, We aren’t on the boat alone. My grandad didn’t wait for me to ask for help. Fearing for his life and mine, he took things back under control. Help is one prayer away. Third, this isn’t a maiden voyage. Our Savior went before us and He left instructions.
Often when life gets out of control I shake my fists at the sky while I’ve locked the throttle in at full speed. Much like my exercise bike, its only use these days is to hang assorted laundry on. God has given us the throttle and the steering wheel. And He beckons us to follow Him through safe waters.